At one point in my life, I was a total control freak. I wore a watch, kept an immaculate day planner, and knew exactly what I would be doing at all moments. Yeah, those days are long past. You know what cured me of my controlling ways? Motherhood! Yep, popping out those darling little children of mine. I have come to accept the fact that there is no controlling them. I can corral them, but like goats they will just eat their way out. I can distract them, but that usually works as well as waving a red cape in front of a charging bull. So, I no longer wear a watch. We are generally late to everything and I don't need a watch mocking me with that fact. I no longer keep a day planner because I can't find it. And I never know what I'll be doing at any given time of the day.
But, oddly enough, none of this bothers me. I'm perfectly ok with the controlled chaos that is my life. I'd rather spontaneously walk to the park with my kiddos than sit in the house filling in all those days on some planner. John Lennon once wrote, "Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans." Well, I lost my planner years ago, so I am always available to enjoy life as it happens and this beyond all else makes me happy.